I've been going through hell recently not being able to live at home as i just dont feel comfortable or happy here and getting kicked out made it much easier to walk. I went to Tony's house i know he didnt really want me there but he knew i had nowhere else to go and cares more about me than to let me sleep on the streets. It was horrible i just felt down and hopeless and like there was no way out then when i was having a chat to Tony and he told me something which just gave me relief and an option. He was talking about his friends mother who drowned when she was younger but was resusitated (or however you spell it) and said that it wasn't scary or painful it was just painless and like drifting off to sleep. I've thought about it for ages although dont want to talk about it for ages i just cant cope anymore but i've always been too scared of the pain of committing suicide although in many ways i think i really do deserve the pain. I've been reading up on it online and i got to say theres not much on here about how to commit suicide just lecturing you it's wrong but i've found some stuff which backs up what i've been told it's just like drifting off into a blissful place which if you ask me sounds great. Peace and quiet no stress or pain just gone all of it. Perhaps i've found an answer just have to find a place a time and some decent weights. I know it might sound stupid but this has taken a huge weight off my mind i now know how to get out of this if theres no other way.
